I wake up
as I do everyday,
take time to make up
my mind about how I feel
about the day ahead.
You think you know me,
what do you see when
you think you see me,
but it’s never me
you’re looking at
but the me you
want to pretend I am.
I hold my breath,
I will not drown
in your lies,
they fill my head
but what I said
still remains true
despite anything said before.
I look at you,
I wish I knew
what to tell you
but would you listen
or would you
hear the words
only thinking of
the words you think
will change me
into the person
you want me to become.
A distant place is where I am,
in dreams
I am myself,
but I do not remain long
before I wake up
to the dreary days
here in my bed.
It’s been so long,
these many years,
so many tears
but still I am here
lost among the shadows.
Here I am wondering
how I will ever be myself
when nothing about myself is certain.
Here I am wondering
how I will find a way
to get out of this place.
I wake up
as I do everyday
and I wonder when
those dreams will be
my waking life.
