I lay here waiting for the sunrise
listening to the rain,
how could I ever end up here
not knowing where to go next?
I wake early just to hear the slience
of a breaking dawn,
I shout to no one
when everything remains the same.
I count the times I’ve been alone and afraid,
afraid of the truth
when the truth hurts so much.
Alone I hear the sounds all around
even when the silence surrounds me
I hear every sound.
I could not begin
to express what’s within
because there are no words
to describe a lonely heart.
It melts when I’m near you,
but you are just a dream
I hold to myself,
not a real person I desire
just the person I wish
would come save me from myself.
Are you listening?
Do these words mean anything to you?
I lay here waiting for a new day to begin,
send me on my way so that I may never wake again,
send me away from this place
and let me be the one I’ve always been.
Seen through a telescope,
from distances so far,
my life look so perfect
but at that distance
you cannot see the cracks in the glass.
At last I reflect upon my identity
as a boy longing to be free,
free from fear and hate
but what a first date that would be?
A tree is falling somewhere,
can you hear it
scream out your name?
Where was I when all of this began?
Stuck in my head I drift
among the clouds
trying not to fall into the thorns below,
trying not to allow my head to explode.
I lay here waiting for the dawn,
Come here and lay next to me,
hold me close so that these words
will evaporate like the morning dew..
come be with me
and we will be one
from this day forth…