I’ve got these thoughts in my head,
the words that you said
on repeat,
but I don’t want to remember anything about you.
I say to myself,
it’s all in the past
but when the thoughts
fill my with sadness
I cannot get away from myself.
I know what you said were lies,
you thought you could control me,
but now I am free from your grip.
I may have suffered
and I may have lost everything I had
but at least I’m moving on with
my life.
What almost brought me down,
past the point of no return,
is now locked away
placed on a shelf in my mind.
If you are reading this you know you were wrong,
God was not what brought me to you,
and what you did to me
won’t stop me
from living my life.
I wish I could express it better
but when I think of those times
the tears are not far behind.
I remind myself it’s over,
it’s all in the past,
but memories remain
and the words you abused me with
have shattered me
though I remain strong through it all.
I’ve been hurt once or twice
in my life,
now I do not trust anyone,
but I am not going down.
I will go on no matter how much I’ve been broken,
I’m writing these words
just to get the thoughts out of my head.
I know they won’t go away for good
but what else can I do
but put it away from time to time
wishing and praying that it won’t happen again?
When you saw me what did you see?
A victim ready for your trap?
