I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave.

I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before my eyes but I stood still as you exposed yourself.

I wanted to touch it so much but I was afraid it would be the wrong move to make.

I feel so alone now as I’m more aware of the feelings suppressed back then.

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