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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

You

Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]

Life dreaming

I’m not ready for anything. These hours I spend dreaming of a better life wasted on dreaming when I’m not one of those people that’s given opportunities in life. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Could I do it again?

I stare at my computer screen trying to remember moments of joy in my life. It’s not been so easy to be me my entire life. You made me feel things. I was in love with you but all you wanted was all that we ever had. We sat together […]

Ghost Teacher #114

Ghost Teacher #114 Ghost Teacher #114 A few weeks ago I moved to this town with my mom. She was kind of lost after my dad died. She needed a restart so I had a restart in my life as well. It was like starting over agin when playing a […]

Ghost Teacher #113

Ghost Teacher #113 I walk through woods unfamiliar to me following clues from dreams I recently dreamt. Does this make me crazy? Before arriving in this town I would never have been so adventurous as to follow clues from dreams but here I am alone in the woods with a […]

Ghost Teacher #112

Ghost Teacher #112 I sit at my desk. I stare at my walls. It’s a Saturday. I have nothing to do but think. I have finished my homework. I have no cases to solve. I have no places to explore. I am bored. I thought that I wanted some time […]

Ghost Teacher #111

Ghost Teacher #111 Mr. Smith once told me that sometimes dreams have a way of revealing things to us, either about ourselves or the world around us, and the dream I had after visiting that house was little of both. I recall the beginning, like a prologue to a greater […]

Ghost Teacher #110

Ghost Teacher #110 The first time I went into the big house on the hill I was amazed at how much stuff could fit into each room. It was a maze of piles. I was there to interview the lady that lives in the house about her vast collection of […]

Ghost Teacher #109

Ghost Teacher #109 Late at night, I sit alone in my room and I imagine what if things had been different. I know that it’s a waste of time but I don’t know how to stop thinking about what if he had not died. I sit here now thinking about […]