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A slow drive across the country, with the songs of road trips a soundtrack to my journey, to find myself is where I begin. The ending is unclear and the middle is still being written. These faded pages of memory written over a lifetime are all I have of my […]
The cool of the evening after the heat of the afternoon is a welcome change. The sky changes colors as the sun vanishes over the horizon. I stand alone on the edge of tomorrow, waiting for the last moments of this day to pass. The dreams will soon come. Life […]
These nights up late I sit alone and think of what could have been. All the years and choices made. All of the things I left behind. All of the lost memories. Trauma has left me forever changed. Experiences have made me who I am. These nights alone I think […]
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I stare up at the ceiling with fake, glowing, stars. I listen to music while watching fake stars on my ceiling. I think of my life and the many memories. Soon dreams will take place of these memories. I think of the many day and nights so long ago. I […]
In the late hours of the day I browse my memory for something I lost to time. I hear the music and it makes me recall times gone. Alone I find myself looking back over the years wondering where those people I met are now. These hours spent living moments […]
I wake up from dreams uncertain where to begin, alone in my room, considering what to do with my time. These hours alone, wasted, looking for things I will never find. When things are uncertain, as they are now, what do you do when you have no clue as to […]
I wake up the same as I do everyday. I know the past is unchangeable yet I still want to reconsider every mistake I’ve ever made. I have scars that you can see, scars from my past, and scars that you cannot see. I know these scars will never go […]
I laughed in a dream one night. I d not recall the joke but I laughed out loud. I stare up at the ceiling. is this my “new” life? Waiting for tomorrow to come. I don’t laugh often these days so when I laughed and smiled in my dream it […]
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I stare at the walls, they remain the same, as time goes on while I’m alone. Nothing changes, only rearranging with time, as life is always the same just another day. You don’t know the things that have brought me to this place. You look at me and you think […]
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I listen to the rain. I feel the air cooling. I pause to consume this moment. I woke up uncertain. These emotions remain. Shall I hide the bad? Shall I ignore the good? I wait for something that I do not know. I hope for the unknown. I’m alone waiting […]
I sat alone and watched time. I never thought I would end up here again. Alone and uncertain of everything. The hours pass and soon it’s night again. The morning is gone and each day only lasts so long. Is this how the rest of my life will be? Stuck […]
Time watched. Passing. Day to night. Dreams. Morning. I watch as days become weeks. I feel like I am motionless while the World keeps spinning. I’m unnoticed. No one sees me or wants to know me. I wake up and sit at my desk. I go to bed to dream […]
I take my time to recall you as you once were just to see the way you look now. It’s not easy being alone but what we had would never last. I have written of my love for you before but I have always known that my love was for […]
I trace these memories back over the years, all of these emotions from long ago, finding myself there again as though these are more than memories. The days gone come back to me in moments of longing for a time now departed. I once imagined if we had been more […]
