I can feel myself longing for sleep as my mind races, so many thoughts so few hours to dream of things to come. I imagine a future, better than the present, waiting for me to come to the right conclusions.
When I think about these moments just before something wonderful, these times before something big in your life when something tragic could occur at any moment, I wonder what to do with these moments of waiting to begin.
If I could capture a moment to live in, never leaving the comfort of the certainty of a moment I recall for these days I live uncertain of everything.
I hear the soundtrack of my life, it’s not what you’d imagine. I can hum along but I never know the words. I can recall the feeling behind memories like scenes from a movie I watch again and again in my head. I rewind but I don’t travel in time, […]
I take the Red, watching people sometimes, wasting time as above me now people live their lives. The sound of an approaching train, The sounds of people all around, we rush as the doors part, as strangers on a train we leave here for somewhere. We’re all going somewhere, different […]
These words you say, thinking you know everything, reminds me how little we know.
I follow the lines in life to these places of distraction wondering where the time has gone. I watch these shows to laugh at lives of pretend, to dream my life could be so real.
Lost in thought I find myself drifting through memories as the time goes by. I am there again living it all again, times too good to forget and times so bad I wish that I could block them out of my memory.
These nights alone I sit and I pray, I long and I dream, but still I remain.
I’ve been thinking about you but I’ve never met you. Are you out there? Looking for me, waiting as I am, for the other to come along. I’ve been thinking about you, I hope you know that I’m patiently waiting for the day we’ll meet for the first time. I […]
In moments I remember those times before. I look back upon seconds out of hours forgetting the other times for those that were pleasant. I do recall strange moments. Standing while a stranger consumed me. What was I thinking? Going through the movements without thinking. A crowded room and I’m […]
Sometimes I think I want to do nothing but then there are times I want to do everything. I wake up to a new day wondering if today will be the day that I begin to live. I’ve been hurt and I’ve given up so often I no longer know […]
My phone is silent, no one to make it break this silence. My heart races as the blood flows down making it harder. I see the images of lust like it’s all that I’m after but there’s more to my longing than a quick one with a stranger. I follow […]
What without words you expressed: your lips part, I feel your intent as you move me. I move my hips as time stops for us. I could remain like this but soon it will be over. Is there more I desire from these moments or am I satisfied closing my […]
A moment revisited from time to time. In my mind I’m there again. I want to be in that moment once again. My fingers move as I imagine being with you once more. It was so long ago but I can still recall the feelings involved. Your mouth was wet […]
If I could be like everyone else would I change everything I am to fit in when no one really fits in? I hear the rain on the roof, the rhythm matches my hands, dreaming of someone imagined to fill the space in my bed to fill the space inside […]
If those hours were to fade away like a bad dream gone would I feel the same about everything? Could we remove the bad and still have all of the good times we’ve had? I consider so many things from my past as wasted hours but would I be the […]
Sometimes the nights are long and everything I desire is but a dream. Sometimes I’m alone at night and I wonder where things went wrong. I can’t express this loss of never having it’s like knowing what’s missing without ever having it from the start. Night becomes day and here […]