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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

You

Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

Alone in this World…

Late in the evening, early in the morning sometimes I wonder if alone is how I’ll always be in this World.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://bundle.growsumo.com/JasonWhitaker https://bundle.growsumo.com/jasonwhitaker

When I dream of Love…

All of these days and nights dreaming of someone like you but you’re just a dream that will never come true. Alone in my room with my thoughts and time… I find myself wanting what I’ve never had from you.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

We Kissed…

Somewhere, once someday long ago, we kissed and I remember how much I wanted it to never end but here I am alone longing to be kissed again. I cannot explain it, these feelings within like tiny explosions in my heart. Do I still love you or have I ever […]

Floating Through

I float through like I’m Casper. I woke up alone again trying to pretend I’m doing better but the pain don’t lie. All of these words to hide how I’m feeling. Sunday morning, time passing, as I wonder if things will always be this way. I drift into the silence […]

Where to Begin?

I think you know by now that these doubts linger with me everyday of my life, I wish I could take these things and remove them so easily but I don’t have the answers to the riddles of my heart. Where do I start to tell of the history and […]

If Only

I close my eyes to the day, dreams are better than my real life. If I could express in words the things in my head I would but they remain unspoken. I holding onto so much you’ve never seen, what do I know of anything but the pain that comes […]

On My Own

Today I woke up, alone again, not knowing where to begin. Who can I go to when I need someone? I’m here alone, wondering what to do, wondering if I will fail when I try to be more than I was yesterday. Will you help me? Today I wonder how […]