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On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

Alone in this World…

Late in the evening, early in the morning sometimes I wonder if alone is how I’ll always be in this World.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://bundle.growsumo.com/JasonWhitaker https://bundle.growsumo.com/jasonwhitaker

When I dream of Love…

All of these days and nights dreaming of someone like you but you’re just a dream that will never come true. Alone in my room with my thoughts and time… I find myself wanting what I’ve never had from you.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

We Kissed…

Somewhere, once someday long ago, we kissed and I remember how much I wanted it to never end but here I am alone longing to be kissed again. I cannot explain it, these feelings within like tiny explosions in my heart. Do I still love you or have I ever […]

Floating Through

I float through like I’m Casper. I woke up alone again trying to pretend I’m doing better but the pain don’t lie. All of these words to hide how I’m feeling. Sunday morning, time passing, as I wonder if things will always be this way. I drift into the silence […]

Where to Begin?

I think you know by now that these doubts linger with me everyday of my life, I wish I could take these things and remove them so easily but I don’t have the answers to the riddles of my heart. Where do I start to tell of the history and […]

If Only

I close my eyes to the day, dreams are better than my real life. If I could express in words the things in my head I would but they remain unspoken. I holding onto so much you’ve never seen, what do I know of anything but the pain that comes […]

On My Own

Today I woke up, alone again, not knowing where to begin. Who can I go to when I need someone? I’m here alone, wondering what to do, wondering if I will fail when I try to be more than I was yesterday. Will you help me? Today I wonder how […]

Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Memories

If you can hear me, when I say I need you, will you remember me when I’m no longer with you? Someday my memories, all of my days and nights, will be forgotten like so many before me. I wonder if I’m wasting these precious hours seeking something I shall […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

Someday

With fading dreams I awake, wondering if today will be different from the many before this one. I dream of a stranger, someone unknown to me now but someday we won’t be strangers anymore. Hello, I’ve been thinking of you often, wondering what those future days would be like when […]

Dreaming

As I begin to drift, sleep begins to take me to places unknown to me. I live a vivid life while my eyes are closed. I meet so many people while asleep but when I’m awake I’m alone most of the hours of the day waiting to dream again.  

Remember

Sky is full of stars, memories fill me as I long to be somewhere other than here. I’m in my room, though in my mind I’m thousands of miles somewhere else. Images fill my head, my heart quickens its pace. I think of them, their names long since gone from […]

Day to Day

These times are tougher, wondering what tomorrow will bring, tougher than most days but these aren’t your typical days. My emotions are mixed, I want to be alone but I want to have a boyfriend to hold me at night. These times I imagine being next to him, I could […]

These Nights

These nights are long dreaming of a life different, uncertain of how to find a way to change everything. I follow each day to the end, dawn to dusk I rise to lay my head back down again. I could pretend I know where I’m going but what is certain […]