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Looking Back

I look back into the memories of a former life, so many years gone, vanished, never to be again. I’ve been through more than I could ever share in words alone. I started out with a dream but tragedies became my friend on a journey that brought me here to […]

These Days

I lay awake trying to recall a time when I was not on my own. These days I wait for an inspiration but my mind remains blank . These days I feel so low and even when things are good I wonder how long these good feelings will remain. I […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

Whole Again

I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped […]

Floating Through

I float through like I’m Casper. I woke up alone again trying to pretend I’m doing better but the pain don’t lie. All of these words to hide how I’m feeling. Sunday morning, time passing, as I wonder if things will always be this way. I drift into the silence […]

Better…

A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

Where to Begin?

I think you know by now that these doubts linger with me everyday of my life, I wish I could take these things and remove them so easily but I don’t have the answers to the riddles of my heart. Where do I start to tell of the history and […]

If Only

I close my eyes to the day, dreams are better than my real life. If I could express in words the things in my head I would but they remain unspoken. I holding onto so much you’ve never seen, what do I know of anything but the pain that comes […]

Where We Once Walked…

The bus moves slowly through the town that I once called home. I’ve been sleeping since I left the place I was but now here I am uncertain of what’s next. I could say that moving back here was a part of a greater plan but when have I ever […]

Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Who Cares?

It’s raining outside my window, darkness all around me, night has come once again and dreams will soon find me. My head is heavy with burdens, does anyone care? I find these times alone, times when I have nothing but thinking to do to be times of strong emotions as […]

Gone

Lately I’ve been dreaming, thinking so much about tomorrow. I feel these memories, like pieces of a puzzle. Tonight I remember a life lived before now, I want to hold tightly to these moments gone.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo  

Memories

If you can hear me, when I say I need you, will you remember me when I’m no longer with you? Someday my memories, all of my days and nights, will be forgotten like so many before me. I wonder if I’m wasting these precious hours seeking something I shall […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

Remember

Sky is full of stars, memories fill me as I long to be somewhere other than here. I’m in my room, though in my mind I’m thousands of miles somewhere else. Images fill my head, my heart quickens its pace. I think of them, their names long since gone from […]

Day to Day

These times are tougher, wondering what tomorrow will bring, tougher than most days but these aren’t your typical days. My emotions are mixed, I want to be alone but I want to have a boyfriend to hold me at night. These times I imagine being next to him, I could […]