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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

Life dreaming

I’m not ready for anything. These hours I spend dreaming of a better life wasted on dreaming when I’m not one of those people that’s given opportunities in life. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

Love is Love

These times have come, those seasons of life gone and went away, and it will never be the same again. I have heard many people talk about things they will never understand, pretending to be so wise when all they know is what has been told to them, and I […]

Late Evening…

In the late hours of the day I browse my memory for something I lost to time. I hear the music and it makes me recall times gone. Alone I find myself looking back over the years wondering where those people I met are now. These hours spent living moments […]

Scars, Unseen

I wake up the same as I do everyday. I know the past is unchangeable yet I still want to reconsider every mistake I’ve ever made. I have scars that you can see, scars from my past, and scars that you cannot see. I know these scars will never go […]

Before…

I stare at the walls, they remain the same, as time goes on while I’m alone. Nothing changes, only rearranging with time, as life is always the same just another day. You don’t know the things that have brought me to this place. You look at me and you think […]

Until Tomorrow

I sat alone and watched time. I never thought I would end up here again. Alone and uncertain of everything. The hours pass and soon it’s night again. The morning is gone and each day only lasts so long. Is this how the rest of my life will be? Stuck […]

Looking Back

I look back into the memories of a former life, so many years gone, vanished, never to be again. I’ve been through more than I could ever share in words alone. I started out with a dream but tragedies became my friend on a journey that brought me here to […]

These Days

I lay awake trying to recall a time when I was not on my own. These days I wait for an inspiration but my mind remains blank . These days I feel so low and even when things are good I wonder how long these good feelings will remain. I […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

Whole Again

I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped […]