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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

You

Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Life

I thought it strange, these times we’re going through, these days waiting for a change that may not come. You hear the news but you’ve closed your mind to the truth. It just doesn’t fit what you want from life. http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

Beneath Fake glowing Stars

I stare up at the ceiling with fake, glowing, stars. I listen to music while watching fake stars on my ceiling. I think of my life and the many memories. Soon dreams will take place of these memories. I think of the many day and nights so long ago. I […]

For a Moment

I wait alone for someone that will never appear. The sky is a blue canvas waiting for clouds. The sun is high in the sky. I pace wondering why I’m here. I walk home alone. Am I desperate? Strangers met online met in a parking lot. Sometimes they are there […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

This Now…

I have been waiting for so long to tell you everything but at these times the words fail me somehow. If I could take back what I’ve done, reverse the years to spare you the tears, I would do anything to do it all again. I cannot pretend to understand […]

We Kissed…

Somewhere, once someday long ago, we kissed and I remember how much I wanted it to never end but here I am alone longing to be kissed again. I cannot explain it, these feelings within like tiny explosions in my heart. Do I still love you or have I ever […]

Whole Again

I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped […]

Satisfy

The hour comes to me, late at night in my room, with the urge to be aroused when all I really want is to go to bed. Love is Love but have I found it anywhere? I can be alone and satisfy myself but what I really need is someone […]

Where to Begin?

I think you know by now that these doubts linger with me everyday of my life, I wish I could take these things and remove them so easily but I don’t have the answers to the riddles of my heart. Where do I start to tell of the history and […]