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Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Who Cares?

It’s raining outside my window, darkness all around me, night has come once again and dreams will soon find me. My head is heavy with burdens, does anyone care? I find these times alone, times when I have nothing but thinking to do to be times of strong emotions as […]

Gone

Lately I’ve been dreaming, thinking so much about tomorrow. I feel these memories, like pieces of a puzzle. Tonight I remember a life lived before now, I want to hold tightly to these moments gone.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo  

Memories

If you can hear me, when I say I need you, will you remember me when I’m no longer with you? Someday my memories, all of my days and nights, will be forgotten like so many before me. I wonder if I’m wasting these precious hours seeking something I shall […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

Anymore

It’s late in the evening, I’m thinking of leaving, but there’s nothing for me out there beyond the dreams. I like to be more than imaginary, these feelings so real I’m about to be real. Have you seen my anatomy? What words would you say to describe the parts of […]

A moment

Tonight I dream, maybe of wonderful things, to wake in the morning forgetting everything. I could live a moment again, my lips against your skin, I almost taste you again. One night so long ago, in a room I knew it all but little did I know I’d look back […]

Remember

Sky is full of stars, memories fill me as I long to be somewhere other than here. I’m in my room, though in my mind I’m thousands of miles somewhere else. Images fill my head, my heart quickens its pace. I think of them, their names long since gone from […]

You

I was so eager, the conversation we had now only a blur of random words. I wanted you, in the living room. You told me to take it slow but I needed your everything. Alone we were in my apartment, I was nervous as I tasted you for the first […]

Day to Day

These times are tougher, wondering what tomorrow will bring, tougher than most days but these aren’t your typical days. My emotions are mixed, I want to be alone but I want to have a boyfriend to hold me at night. These times I imagine being next to him, I could […]

These Nights

These nights are long dreaming of a life different, uncertain of how to find a way to change everything. I follow each day to the end, dawn to dusk I rise to lay my head back down again. I could pretend I know where I’m going but what is certain […]

Those Darkest of Hours

In the dark hours, times of low and sorrow I hear his voice shattering my silence. I want to kill his memories, forget the time I spent captive. I’ve been broken, those words spoken are still roaming my head like smoke filling a room of memory. You watched me in […]

Living Room Scene

It’s been some time since those times, on your knees at me feet you consumed me. I see you sometimes, Sunday morning, and I remember those hours. I can feel your mouth take me inside as my mind drifted. I can remember those times and I think I want it […]

Hello Stranger

Hello Stranger, insert your name here. Not that I hate you or love you but what we had was just a moment. I remember those times but I don’t remember all of you. You pointed down and told me you wanted it after saying you were not about it. You […]

Aware

Somewhere in these words, the many things I’ve said and written, you could find me. I hate to repeat myself, but I will as long as required, so I tell you I need you. I don’t know who you are, we may have met but I’m still unaware of your […]