I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]
I stay up late watching the weather outside my window. The sky clears as the moon and stars begin to appear. I feel the need to be somehwere better. I’m solitary. No one to share my bed with. Only my dreams. I feel a need to share my longing for […]
I feel nothing as I walk the halls of a new school. I was sent to the guidance counselor. She talked about feelings but I feel nothing. I met a teacher while waiting. He told me to come by his class after school. After school I walked in to an […]
I thought he was the cutest boy I had ever seen when I followed this strange boy through a door in a tree, down a set of stairs, and out another door in another tree. My first thought upon seeing this place was that it must have been a dream. […]
I woke up in a strange land surrounded by nothing familiar. I followed a stranger to this place I first thought I had imagined. I followed through a door in that tree down into the ground and up out the other side. I don’t know where things turned upside down. […]
I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]
I shed the things of my past like baggage left at a former house. I see the changes over time like an evolution of myself. I feel the soft skin beneath and the blood rushes. Counting the stars while wishing these dreams could ever be true. I lay in bed […]
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The embers of the fire glow as if alive. The fire is almost dead. Smoke rises in a few places. I sit on a log nearby watching. It’s late in the evening and I’m here alone watching a fire die out. The rest of the troop is elsewhere. Earlier in […]
When I close my eyes I remember the beginning. The scars remain but so do the memories. I’m told that things will get better but memories are not as easy to heal. The lights are off in his house. I can hear the rest of his family asleep throughout the […]
Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]
I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]
Rain on my roof, nothing to do but think of you but there’s no you to think about. I look at myself, I thought I knew who I was those years ago but now I see that I never knew everything. Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]
With fading dreams I awake, wondering if today will be different from the many before this one. I dream of a stranger, someone unknown to me now but someday we won’t be strangers anymore. Hello, I’ve been thinking of you often, wondering what those future days would be like when […]
The headlines are depressing, my life is not what I would have expected. I sit here thinking of choices made, wondering about my choices I will make. Tired and alone, horny but don’t want to do anything by myself. The hour is late, I wonder if I will ever date. […]
These nights alone I sit and I pray, I long and I dream, but still I remain.
What without words you expressed: your lips part, I feel your intent as you move me. I move my hips as time stops for us. I could remain like this but soon it will be over. Is there more I desire from these moments or am I satisfied closing my […]
A moment revisited from time to time. In my mind I’m there again. I want to be in that moment once again. My fingers move as I imagine being with you once more. It was so long ago but I can still recall the feelings involved. Your mouth was wet […]
