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Dreams of a Future Lover

These long hours, sitting, thinking of someone I want to meet someday I dream of that one day when you will be more than a dream to me. I reach out, pull you close to me, hold you tightly next to me. I can feel your passion growing, my lips […]

A Moment in My Life

I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]

Once

I held my breath as he went down. His lips pressed against me. He consumed me. I counted the seconds passing wondering how long I could go. He knew what he was doing. He was gentle but he was in control. He had me in his mouth. I closed my […]

Two Trees

Once there was a tree that sat upon a hill surrounded by fields, surrounded by trees. This tree was alone. A solitary tree. With each season this tree would wish for another tree to be next to. Each season the trees past the fields would mock him. He was just […]

The Tower (Part One)

The stairs of the giant tour are numerous. The tower is old. I am certain that whatever is at the top of this tower is worth this adventitious journey. I attempt to steady my breathing so I may continue on my quest. With each step I take I begin to […]

A Walk

The sky is a blue canvas as I walk down a street unaware of where I am walking. My mind is restless as I walk away from home towards anywhere but home. The first time I saw him I was uncertain whether or not he was real. I look up […]

The Suitcase (Part One)

The stillness of the air was unnerving. I was alone yet I felt watched with each step that I took into the abandoned house. I could smell time. There is a nostalgic smell that comes with places left abandoned for many years. It’s strange being nostalgic for a time in […]

That Place Beyond Imagination…

These moments of memory, more like a dream, come to me as in fairy tales told over time. Adventures had in a place of fantasy. If not for the relics I brought home I would assume they were nothing more than dreams. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ […]

DEAR…

I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]

Good Night

I stay up late watching the weather outside my window. The sky clears as the moon and stars begin to appear. I feel the need to be somehwere better. I’m solitary. No one to share my bed with. Only my dreams. I feel a need to share my longing for […]

Ghost #2

I feel nothing as I walk the halls of a new school. I was sent to the guidance counselor. She talked about feelings but I feel nothing. I met a teacher while waiting. He told me to come by his class after school. After school I walked in to an […]

Tree to Nowhere #1

I woke up in a strange land surrounded by nothing familiar. I followed a stranger to this place I first thought I had imagined. I followed through a door in that tree down into the ground and up out the other side. I don’t know where things turned upside down. […]

On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

Waiting

I shed the things of my past like baggage left at a former house. I see the changes over time like an evolution of myself. I feel the soft skin beneath and the blood rushes. Counting the stars while wishing these dreams could ever be true. I lay in bed […]

Into the Woods

The embers of the fire glow as if alive. The fire is almost dead. Smoke rises in a few places. I sit on a log nearby watching. It’s late in the evening and I’m here alone watching a fire die out. The rest of the troop is elsewhere. Earlier in […]

Once Upon a Memory

When I close my eyes I remember the beginning. The scars remain but so do the memories. I’m told that things will get better but memories are not as easy to heal. The lights are off in his house. I can hear the rest of his family asleep throughout the […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]