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Thorns

It’s late again and I’m still wide awake wishing I could have another chance to find true love. He said no and I gave up hope. I’ve never had anyone to share my life with and it doesn’t seem to be a possibility for me someday. I catch my breath […]

Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

Life dreaming

I’m not ready for anything. These hours I spend dreaming of a better life wasted on dreaming when I’m not one of those people that’s given opportunities in life. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

Dreams of a Future Lover

These long hours, sitting, thinking of someone I want to meet someday I dream of that one day when you will be more than a dream to me. I reach out, pull you close to me, hold you tightly next to me. I can feel your passion growing, my lips […]

A Moment in My Life

I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]

Once

I held my breath as he went down. His lips pressed against me. He consumed me. I counted the seconds passing wondering how long I could go. He knew what he was doing. He was gentle but he was in control. He had me in his mouth. I closed my […]

Two Trees

Once there was a tree that sat upon a hill surrounded by fields, surrounded by trees. This tree was alone. A solitary tree. With each season this tree would wish for another tree to be next to. Each season the trees past the fields would mock him. He was just […]

The Tower (Part One)

The stairs of the giant tour are numerous. The tower is old. I am certain that whatever is at the top of this tower is worth this adventitious journey. I attempt to steady my breathing so I may continue on my quest. With each step I take I begin to […]

A Walk

The sky is a blue canvas as I walk down a street unaware of where I am walking. My mind is restless as I walk away from home towards anywhere but home. The first time I saw him I was uncertain whether or not he was real. I look up […]

The Suitcase (Part One)

The stillness of the air was unnerving. I was alone yet I felt watched with each step that I took into the abandoned house. I could smell time. There is a nostalgic smell that comes with places left abandoned for many years. It’s strange being nostalgic for a time in […]

That Place Beyond Imagination…

These moments of memory, more like a dream, come to me as in fairy tales told over time. Adventures had in a place of fantasy. If not for the relics I brought home I would assume they were nothing more than dreams. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ […]