Desire
I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]
Late Night
I’m tired but awake. Alone and lonely. Depressed and anxious. Who am I? What defines me as me? Can I be more than what others may think of me? http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ GoFundMe: gf.me/u/zngibh gf.me/u/zngxxz Watch me Live each […]
So Many Memories
I sit for hours thinking alone, a sinking feeling I know so well, as thoughts parade through my mind like when was the last time I was not alone. These walls I have known, for so long, are so bland but it’s all I know. The outside world seems distant, […]
Waiting
I walk alone in the dark of night dreaming of holding hands. I could be wrong about so many things but finding love is one thing I know that I need. Is it too late to have a first love? Am I wrong to want the true one for me? […]
Change
I thought things would be better, never imagined things being this way, but here I am waiting for change. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5FKzPNjMPgt2YQUzwnwbco https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171 https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish List: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share B&H Wish Lists: https://www.bnh.com/wish/d708c22fb2c7d1f91713b6953a9b1957/ https://www.bnh.com/wish/6bf0fe098ba1479a6647d7f85ba48939/
Late Night Thoughts
These hours in the middle of the night awake staring at the ceiling again. I wish I were dreaming but dreams are nothing. I wish I were somewhere out there doing something other than this. I could count these hours passing as I lay here with so many thoughts crowding […]
Time
Sun through open window. Time passing. We are all waiting for something uncertain. These times may not be easy but there have been difficult times in the past. We watch the things around us. The times are changing. The times have always been changing. Let us not worry because we […]
Love is Love
These times have come, those seasons of life gone and went away, and it will never be the same again. I have heard many people talk about things they will never understand, pretending to be so wise when all they know is what has been told to them, and I […]
Late Evening Hours
It’s late in the evening hours, I don’t know what cam of me, these hours wasted thinking of the yesterdays. I’ve come so far from where I was, lost in a confusion about everything, not that I know everything now but I am wiser than I was those many days […]
Beneath the Tall Trees
We gathered beneath the tall trees and sang songs of praise. We gathered beneath trees with branches reaching out sheltering us from the sun as we sang songs of praise. We gathered beneath trees as the morning became day. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter […]
Beneath Fake glowing Stars
I stare up at the ceiling with fake, glowing, stars. I listen to music while watching fake stars on my ceiling. I think of my life and the many memories. Soon dreams will take place of these memories. I think of the many day and nights so long ago. I […]
Late Evening…
In the late hours of the day I browse my memory for something I lost to time. I hear the music and it makes me recall times gone. Alone I find myself looking back over the years wondering where those people I met are now. These hours spent living moments […]
Uncertain
I wake up from dreams uncertain where to begin, alone in my room, considering what to do with my time. These hours alone, wasted, looking for things I will never find. When things are uncertain, as they are now, what do you do when you have no clue as to […]
Scars, Unseen
I wake up the same as I do everyday. I know the past is unchangeable yet I still want to reconsider every mistake I’ve ever made. I have scars that you can see, scars from my past, and scars that you cannot see. I know these scars will never go […]
New
I laughed in a dream one night. I d not recall the joke but I laughed out loud. I stare up at the ceiling. is this my “new” life? Waiting for tomorrow to come. I don’t laugh often these days so when I laughed and smiled in my dream it […]
Normal
You stand around the empty rooms wondering if things will ever be normal again. I look at my life and I realize that things have never been normal to me. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish […]
Reasons…
Before the night begins I find reasons to do nothing. How many days can I do the same thing? At night, in bed, I imagine the possible. So many options. After dreams I wake uncertain again. I find more reasons to do nothing. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ […]
Before…
I stare at the walls, they remain the same, as time goes on while I’m alone. Nothing changes, only rearranging with time, as life is always the same just another day. You don’t know the things that have brought me to this place. You look at me and you think […]
Waiting
I listen to the rain. I feel the air cooling. I pause to consume this moment. I woke up uncertain. These emotions remain. Shall I hide the bad? Shall I ignore the good? I wait for something that I do not know. I hope for the unknown. I’m alone waiting […]
Until Tomorrow
I sat alone and watched time. I never thought I would end up here again. Alone and uncertain of everything. The hours pass and soon it’s night again. The morning is gone and each day only lasts so long. Is this how the rest of my life will be? Stuck […]
