Desire
I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]
Late Night
I’m tired but awake. Alone and lonely. Depressed and anxious. Who am I? What defines me as me? Can I be more than what others may think of me? http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ GoFundMe: gf.me/u/zngibh gf.me/u/zngxxz Watch me Live each […]
Dreams of a Future Lover
These long hours, sitting, thinking of someone I want to meet someday I dream of that one day when you will be more than a dream to me. I reach out, pull you close to me, hold you tightly next to me. I can feel your passion growing, my lips […]
A Moment in My Life
I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]
Once
I held my breath as he went down. His lips pressed against me. He consumed me. I counted the seconds passing wondering how long I could go. He knew what he was doing. He was gentle but he was in control. He had me in his mouth. I closed my […]
The Tower (Part One)
The stairs of the giant tour are numerous. The tower is old. I am certain that whatever is at the top of this tower is worth this adventitious journey. I attempt to steady my breathing so I may continue on my quest. With each step I take I begin to […]
These Trees
These trees bend to the wind’s embrace, dance with the breeze, and I hold out my hands searching for a reason to anything. I’m not afraid of the dark, what is hidden can remain, but what I fear the most is going through life alone. At night I whisper in […]
DEAR…
I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]
The Silence of My Solitude
I sit watching my computer screen, wondering if I will ever not be alone, wondering if I will forever be like this. At night in bed I remember being so close to those strangers, the space between us so small but the distance between our hearts light years apart, and […]
Good Night
I stay up late watching the weather outside my window. The sky clears as the moon and stars begin to appear. I feel the need to be somehwere better. I’m solitary. No one to share my bed with. Only my dreams. I feel a need to share my longing for […]
One Night so many years ago…
The day is almost over as I scan the street. I do not know if you will ever appear but I wait with anticipation. We have messaged for hours and now we’re meeting in real life. I am nervous. I’ve done this before but each time I am apprehensive. I’ve […]
When Words Fail…
I see the stars. I see the trampoline. I hear your voice in the dark. I feel your skin between my fingers. I think so much of what could have been. I imagine us now if there had been more to us then. I loved you then and maybe I […]
You and My Memories
If I never hear from you I will never miss the words you could have said. I look back in time and memory to when you kissed me. I travel in time if only in memory to relive what we once had. You are now distant but once you were […]
Words…
Somewhere in the night I could arise like the sun and be more than anything anyone could imagine. I hear the words of the ignorant and I wish that I could say that these words never hurt but sometimes they bring me down. I’m not like any other, nor do […]
Not Forgotten
I slow my mind with a rhythm as my heart races. I think about a moment, it was so long ago, it was just one night but I’ve never forgotten it. I recall meeting him every so often and how I only thought of him while we were together. Sometimes […]
Waiting
I shed the things of my past like baggage left at a former house. I see the changes over time like an evolution of myself. I feel the soft skin beneath and the blood rushes. Counting the stars while wishing these dreams could ever be true. I lay in bed […]
Satisfy
The hour comes to me, late at night in my room, with the urge to be aroused when all I really want is to go to bed. Love is Love but have I found it anywhere? I can be alone and satisfy myself but what I really need is someone […]
Caged Love
As the last ray of light hits the horizon I see you in my dreams once again. My hands shake like they did those many years ago in your bedroom. Have I ever loved anyone as I loved you then? Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]
Better…
A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…
Short Stories
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