jasonwhitaker29171
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August 18, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#California, #friends, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #past, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
It’s been so many days
since we last spoke on the telephone
but it’s just now that I write these words down:
I wish that things were different,
I miss the way it was before
but maybe it could never be
like it was before again.
I don’t blame you for being who you are,
I only wish you the best,
and as I end this
I want you to know
how much you mean to me
all of those times we’d be on the telephone.
It meant more to me
to hear you talk about your day
because I’m here alone
so often and you were
a voice in the silence
of my life.
We have parted ways,
we’ve done this before,
but now I’m afraid
that this must be
a permanent end
to our conversations.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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August 11, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Alone, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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August 4, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Boys, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #Kissing, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #music, #night, #past, #poem, #sex, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
I slow my mind
with a rhythm
as my heart races.
I think about a moment,
it was so long ago,
it was just one night
but I’ve never forgotten it.
I recall meeting him
every so often
and how I only thought of him
while we were together.
Sometimes I think about the guys
I’ve shared my time with
but they were only moments in time
and now I am here alone.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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August 3, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Alone, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #lover, #masturbation, #oral, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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August 1, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#boyfriend, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #lover, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
Somewhere out there among the stars,
I’ll find my dreams
and find you waiting for me.
Come to me when you find me,
I’ll be waiting for you.
We search our entire lives
for the love
that no one else has for us.
We search all of these days and nights
for arms to hold us tight
but we spend too many nights alone
wishing we could find this love.
If only love could find his way to me…
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jasonwhitaker29171
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August 1, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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August 1, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Alone, #boyfriend, #depression, #emotions, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #lover, #memory, #night, #past, #poem, #sex, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
Sometimes I wonder
where I went so wrong?
I could love you
but these feelings
won’t let me
let you in.
Somedays I feel like this crushing force
is about to take my last breath
as I remember you
as you were
when we would kiss.
Sometimes I think no one
could ever love me
as I am,
but how could I ever change
who I am for love?
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jasonwhitaker29171
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August 1, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#GayWriter, #images, #LGBTWriter, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, Fiction, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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August 1, 2019
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Fiction, writing, poetry, writing
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#emotions, #FlashFiction, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #music, #poem, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, #YAfiction, Fiction, poetry, writing
I have been waiting for so long
to tell you everything
but at these times
the words fail me somehow.
If I could take back
what I’ve done,
reverse the years
to spare you the tears,
I would do anything
to do it all again.
I cannot pretend to understand
having someone like me
is like having no one at all
but here we are
and we’re all we’ve got
in this World.
So, let’s start new
with here and now
and see where things
take us now.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 30, 2019
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Uncategorized
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#Alone, #emotions, #friends, #GayWriter, #Kiss, #Kissing, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #lover, #past, #poem, #SC, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
Somewhere, once someday long ago,
we kissed and I remember
how much I wanted it to never end
but here I am alone
longing to be kissed again.
I cannot explain it,
these feelings within
like tiny explosions
in my heart.
Do I still love you
or have I ever loved you
from the start?
Maybe I’ll never know
because it ended before
it had time to truly begin…
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 30, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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July 25, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #music, #poem, #purpose, #resist, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
Moving against the wind,
straining to survive in this World
as the forces of evil reign.
I can hear the voices
of the weak
they seek refuge
from the storm.
I can see
the powerful
have a grip upon everything
as they increase their wealth
by the sweat of those
trapped by their circumstances.
Keep on praying,
you that seek to live
a better life
because you are heard.
I don’t have the answers
but I know something is not right
with the way things are now.
Let us keep moving forward
no matter how many times
they try to keep us down…
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 25, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#abuse, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #GayWriter, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #night, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
I wish I could be so bold
in my life
but these strings
keep me down.
I feel the tug to be
like someone else
when my real self keeps
reaching up towards
greater heights.
I imagine being myself
but who am I
when these tragedies and lies
have shaped my identity?
I want to love but I fear
love won’t be returned.
These nights alone
I fear these nights
will be the rest
of my life.
Stuck in me head
trying to be me
when your impressions of me
keep bringing me down.
Trying to live my dreams
but all I receive are reasons to give up.
I hear the birds sing
and I hear the wind through the trees
as I sit silently waiting for another day to begin…
Can you take away the pain
and all of these hidden things
that keep me locked away?
I never doubted you,
Lord, you have brought me through
so much pain and suffering
but now I need for you
to make these broken pieces
whole again.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 25, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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July 25, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
A strange feeling comes over me
whenever I hear
that familiar song.
It may be from a movie,
a soundtrack that could be for my life,
but it resonates beyond the big screen.
I can hear the words and I can hear the music
as I go through my day
even when I cannot recall the name
of the song.
A stranger’s reflection in your mind,
you may have met once
but this meeting
left an impression on your mind.
A soundtrack to my life,
a cast of characters,
a constant rhythm in head.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 23, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Dreams, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #night, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
Waking in the morning,
I’m out of bed
before my dreams fade
as they do everyday.
No alarm
just another day.
Nothing to do
but work and dream
the day away.
Say nothing to anyone
because I’m all alone in my room.
I dream while awake
and I dream at night
but the dreams that matter
the most to me
are the dreams
I’ve had so many years now…
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 19, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#Dreams, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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July 16, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#boyfriend, #cock, #Dreams, #fantasy, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #masturbation, #night, #oral, #SC, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, writing
I shed the things of my past
like baggage left
at a former house.
I see the changes
over time
like an evolution
of myself.
I feel the soft skin beneath
and the blood rushes.
Counting the stars
while wishing
these dreams
could ever be true.
I lay in bed wondering,
is this all there will ever be?
I keep hope
despite the odds.
Is this real living
or am I a captive of my dreams?
A dream is worth the waiting.
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jasonwhitaker29171
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July 15, 2019
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writing, poetry, writing
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#boyfriend, #cock, #emotions, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #identity, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #masturbation, #night, #oral, #poem, #purpose, #sex, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing
jasonwhitaker29171
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July 15, 2019
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Fiction, writing
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#boyfriend, #FlashFiction, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #ShortStory, #SouthCarolina, #story, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, #YAfiction, Fiction, writing
The house shakes with each gust of wind, the thunder echoing throughout the empty house, and I stare out into the dark wondering if I’ll ever see him again.
It was a minor disagreement that led to him storming out of the house. I could have stopped him from leaving but part of me was uncertain if I wanted him to remain. Now the part of me that remained silent misses him…
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