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Thorns

It’s late again and I’m still wide awake wishing I could have another chance to find true love. He said no and I gave up hope. I’ve never had anyone to share my life with and it doesn’t seem to be a possibility for me someday. I catch my breath […]

Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

You

Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]

Life dreaming

I’m not ready for anything. These hours I spend dreaming of a better life wasted on dreaming when I’m not one of those people that’s given opportunities in life. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Life

I thought it strange, these times we’re going through, these days waiting for a change that may not come. You hear the news but you’ve closed your mind to the truth. It just doesn’t fit what you want from life. http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

So Many Memories

I sit for hours thinking alone, a sinking feeling I know so well, as thoughts parade through my mind like when was the last time I was not alone. These walls I have known, for so long, are so bland but it’s all I know. The outside world seems distant, […]

Dreams of a Future Lover

These long hours, sitting, thinking of someone I want to meet someday I dream of that one day when you will be more than a dream to me. I reach out, pull you close to me, hold you tightly next to me. I can feel your passion growing, my lips […]

A Moment in My Life

I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]

Road Trip

The road stretches out before us. The music flowing from this van as we wander down the highway. I linger upon the things on the sides of this highway. The houses and towns between trees and fields. This journey began as a dare to see how far we could go. […]