I trace these memories back over the years, all of these emotions from long ago, finding myself there again as though these are more than memories. The days gone come back to me in moments of longing for a time now departed. I once imagined if we had been more […]
Sometimes when I am on my own I think of you. When I have nothing else to do I sit here and remember you. I thought so much of you. You were the one I wanted to be more than friends with but you said no to me. I think […]
I wake up early in the morning. The song on the radio is a familiar tune. I stretch out in bed. No one but me and sometimes I’m okay with that. I walk to the bathroom for a morning shower. What should I wear today? Does it even matter? Today […]
I stare at a blank screen. Words appear but what do they mean? I start to look for what was lost to memory. Times both good and bad. Can we have one without the other? It’s late, soon I will dream but for now I write. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 […]
The moon is high, alone in the sky. I always dream of things different for me. No one here but me in my waking hours. In my dreams I am never alone. I hear the depth to the sorrows but what can I do but cry for those like me. […]
When I was younger I thought I knew so much. Those years now gone like a ripple from a stone across a still pond. I think back for a moment to those times longe forgotten now recalled like it were yesterday. A play performed and so many days roaming the […]
Silence. Waiting for things to change. Panic. I try to forget so much but my memory will not allow it. I stop the tears. The sorrow remains. So many years to forget but they keep coming back to me. Can I find a way to forget the hurt? https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 […]
I saw the lights in the sky while watching Victor fall in love. Somewhere out there beneath these very stars is a love I hope to find. I wonder how many more days until we meet and then he will be mine and will be his. Watching love through makebelieve […]
I wake up here again, waiting for change. Somewhere is anywhere but here, anywhere could be better than here. Waking up each day wondering if today will be the day that is the begin to a change in my life. Will this be the day that my life changes for […]
The trees were tall along the highway, towering giants watching over every traveler. Music loud playing in the car, so many more miles to go before we’re home again. When I was young I would watch the trees on the sides of the road. I would dream of these roads. […]
I have seen these days like a dream. At the time I had little understanding of what these dreams meant. I wake to the sun intruding like a thief stealing my sleep. Someone once told me that I should write down my dreams as soon as I wake up, before […]
These trees bend to the wind’s embrace, dance with the breeze, and I hold out my hands searching for a reason to anything. I’m not afraid of the dark, what is hidden can remain, but what I fear the most is going through life alone. At night I whisper in […]
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I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]
Late at night I watch the stars. I can hear the wind through the trees and a dog nearby barking at the moon. I close my eyes for a moment to recall things of dreams almost forgotten. In my dreams I am not alone and when I open my eyes […]
I sit watching my computer screen, wondering if I will ever not be alone, wondering if I will forever be like this. At night in bed I remember being so close to those strangers, the space between us so small but the distance between our hearts light years apart, and […]
I feel nothing as I walk the halls of a new school. I was sent to the guidance counselor. She talked about feelings but I feel nothing. I met a teacher while waiting. He told me to come by his class after school. After school I walked in to an […]
The trees sway in the wind like laughter as I walk alone tonight. The dogs and birds are fast asleep. I hear my footsteps on the wet pavement. Walking alone at night my thoughts are random. Strange things come to me. Like, when do bees sleep? The volume of the […]
I hear the music in my ears. The words so clear. I hear your confusion as you begin to speak. I see your panic as you begin to dance. The night is almost over and you are here with me. I follow the rhythm to the place of peace. There […]
I’m taking my time to get the words right, no reason to rush when we’ve been fighting so long, let’s find our voice and shout together as one for this is our time to rise above. It’s been so many years of being less than and now we have our […]
