Desire
I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]
Late Night
I’m tired but awake. Alone and lonely. Depressed and anxious. Who am I? What defines me as me? Can I be more than what others may think of me? http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ GoFundMe: gf.me/u/zngibh gf.me/u/zngxxz Watch me Live each […]
Dreams of a Future Lover
These long hours, sitting, thinking of someone I want to meet someday I dream of that one day when you will be more than a dream to me. I reach out, pull you close to me, hold you tightly next to me. I can feel your passion growing, my lips […]
A Moment in My Life
I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]
Once
I held my breath as he went down. His lips pressed against me. He consumed me. I counted the seconds passing wondering how long I could go. He knew what he was doing. He was gentle but he was in control. He had me in his mouth. I closed my […]
In the Tall Grass
The night is aglow with stars and fireworks. We walk with our hands knitted together between us. The grass is tall except where this path has been flattened by people walking around this small park as we are now. A light breeze greets us as we enter a clearing surrounded […]
The Tower (Part One)
The stairs of the giant tour are numerous. The tower is old. I am certain that whatever is at the top of this tower is worth this adventitious journey. I attempt to steady my breathing so I may continue on my quest. With each step I take I begin to […]
A Walk
The sky is a blue canvas as I walk down a street unaware of where I am walking. My mind is restless as I walk away from home towards anywhere but home. The first time I saw him I was uncertain whether or not he was real. I look up […]
Late Evening Hours
It’s late in the evening hours, I don’t know what cam of me, these hours wasted thinking of the yesterdays. I’ve come so far from where I was, lost in a confusion about everything, not that I know everything now but I am wiser than I was those many days […]
Now, Alone
I take my time to recall you as you once were just to see the way you look now. It’s not easy being alone but what we had would never last. I have written of my love for you before but I have always known that my love was for […]
Waiting for Love
I saw the lights in the sky while watching Victor fall in love. Somewhere out there beneath these very stars is a love I hope to find. I wonder how many more days until we meet and then he will be mine and will be his. Watching love through makebelieve […]
These Trees
These trees bend to the wind’s embrace, dance with the breeze, and I hold out my hands searching for a reason to anything. I’m not afraid of the dark, what is hidden can remain, but what I fear the most is going through life alone. At night I whisper in […]
DEAR…
I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]
The Silence of My Solitude
I sit watching my computer screen, wondering if I will ever not be alone, wondering if I will forever be like this. At night in bed I remember being so close to those strangers, the space between us so small but the distance between our hearts light years apart, and […]
Love is…
I hear the music in my ears. The words so clear. I hear your confusion as you begin to speak. I see your panic as you begin to dance. The night is almost over and you are here with me. I follow the rhythm to the place of peace. There […]
One Night so many years ago…
The day is almost over as I scan the street. I do not know if you will ever appear but I wait with anticipation. We have messaged for hours and now we’re meeting in real life. I am nervous. I’ve done this before but each time I am apprehensive. I’ve […]
Zombie Boy #1
I have no idea how to begin this. I mean where do I begin? The World changed. I changed. I was not myself for so many years. I regret the person I became. I hate the word most use to describe the person I was during those years. Zombie. I […]
I Love You
Do you recall those years before, I could lie and pretend I don’t remember you. I think of you at times, what was just a moment in time meant so much to me, times you may want to forget. I was in love but you were just whatever you were, […]
When Words Fail…
I see the stars. I see the trampoline. I hear your voice in the dark. I feel your skin between my fingers. I think so much of what could have been. I imagine us now if there had been more to us then. I loved you then and maybe I […]
Words…
Somewhere in the night I could arise like the sun and be more than anything anyone could imagine. I hear the words of the ignorant and I wish that I could say that these words never hurt but sometimes they bring me down. I’m not like any other, nor do […]
