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Zombie Boy #1

I have no idea how to begin this. I mean where do I begin? The World changed. I changed. I was not myself for so many years. I regret the person I became. I hate the word most use to describe the person I was during those years. Zombie. I […]

When Words Fail…

I see the stars. I see the trampoline. I hear your voice in the dark. I feel your skin between my fingers. I think so much of what could have been. I imagine us now if there had been more to us then. I loved you then and maybe I […]

On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

When I dream of Love…

All of these days and nights dreaming of someone like you but you’re just a dream that will never come true. Alone in my room with my thoughts and time… I find myself wanting what I’ve never had from you.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]

Sometimes of Memory

Sometimes while watching the weather repeat, hot days with thunderstorms once again, I find myself thinking about these many years. Once I sat and spoke with you on the Boulevard while fascinated by the colors of the lights and our conversation I recall as a jumble of words. I follow […]

If Only

Somewhere out there among the stars, I’ll find my dreams and find you waiting for me. Come to me when you find me, I’ll be waiting for you. We search our entire lives for the love that no one else has for us. We search all of these days and […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

We Kissed…

Somewhere, once someday long ago, we kissed and I remember how much I wanted it to never end but here I am alone longing to be kissed again. I cannot explain it, these feelings within like tiny explosions in my heart. Do I still love you or have I ever […]

If You Will Remain

Soft lips under soft light candle light, knowing you’re there.   Moments together yearning for more.   Day ends is there more? can I ever know you know you more?   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/

Into the Woods

The embers of the fire glow as if alive. The fire is almost dead. Smoke rises in a few places. I sit on a log nearby watching. It’s late in the evening and I’m here alone watching a fire die out. The rest of the troop is elsewhere. Earlier in […]

Once Upon a Memory

When I close my eyes I remember the beginning. The scars remain but so do the memories. I’m told that things will get better but memories are not as easy to heal. The lights are off in his house. I can hear the rest of his family asleep throughout the […]

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

Your Lips

Suddenly I’m into deep when I’ve chased my dreams down a dead end street. I watch you in memory, you were so much to me, but now you’re somewhere out there unaware of how much you meant to me. Who am I? What has made me into the person you […]

Ignorance

I can see your ignorance so clear and your hate comes through with every word you wrote. You think you’re so mighty, a judge over everything, you think you’re unsinkable but you’re a fake. How easy it is to write about something you know nothing about. Keep your ignorance to […]

Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Who Cares?

It’s raining outside my window, darkness all around me, night has come once again and dreams will soon find me. My head is heavy with burdens, does anyone care? I find these times alone, times when I have nothing but thinking to do to be times of strong emotions as […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]