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I found myself on a Greyhound leaving the bright lights of the city for a place I’ve only heard about in stories. What brought about my exodus is another story. This is the story of how a gay boy went to live with his conservative grandparents. This is your warning: […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

Whole Again

I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped […]

Better…

A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

What Became of You…

I didn’t mean to forget you, if I could go back we’d still be friends, but now these many years later we’ve gone our separate ways. I remember riding so far, I think of you every so often. Where are you now? I have no way to connect with you. […]

On My Own

Today I woke up, alone again, not knowing where to begin. Who can I go to when I need someone? I’m here alone, wondering what to do, wondering if I will fail when I try to be more than I was yesterday. Will you help me? Today I wonder how […]

People from My Past

It’s stuck in my head, fragments of memories, those times real or imagined. There’s no one to ask, no one would know, these people from my past either a dream or in my waking life.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ fjasonwhitakerwriter.com  

Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Remember

These days, looking back, looking forward uncertain where I’ll be next. I remember you, I’ve not forgotten what you meant to me even after all of these years. I reflect upon those days and nights, so many people that I have met, and now here I am alone. On the […]

Who Cares?

It’s raining outside my window, darkness all around me, night has come once again and dreams will soon find me. My head is heavy with burdens, does anyone care? I find these times alone, times when I have nothing but thinking to do to be times of strong emotions as […]

Gone

Lately I’ve been dreaming, thinking so much about tomorrow. I feel these memories, like pieces of a puzzle. Tonight I remember a life lived before now, I want to hold tightly to these moments gone.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo  

Memories

If you can hear me, when I say I need you, will you remember me when I’m no longer with you? Someday my memories, all of my days and nights, will be forgotten like so many before me. I wonder if I’m wasting these precious hours seeking something I shall […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

A moment

Tonight I dream, maybe of wonderful things, to wake in the morning forgetting everything. I could live a moment again, my lips against your skin, I almost taste you again. One night so long ago, in a room I knew it all but little did I know I’d look back […]