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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

You

Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

Untitled New Story

I found myself on a Greyhound leaving the bright lights of the city for a place I’ve only heard about in stories. What brought about my exodus is another story. This is the story of how a gay boy went to live with his conservative grandparents. This is your warning: […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

Whole Again

I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped […]

Better…

A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

What Became of You…

I didn’t mean to forget you, if I could go back we’d still be friends, but now these many years later we’ve gone our separate ways. I remember riding so far, I think of you every so often. Where are you now? I have no way to connect with you. […]

On My Own

Today I woke up, alone again, not knowing where to begin. Who can I go to when I need someone? I’m here alone, wondering what to do, wondering if I will fail when I try to be more than I was yesterday. Will you help me? Today I wonder how […]

People from My Past

It’s stuck in my head, fragments of memories, those times real or imagined. There’s no one to ask, no one would know, these people from my past either a dream or in my waking life.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ fjasonwhitakerwriter.com