Tag: #memory

• Desire

  Do you have ever feel so alone in the middle of the day? Watching time pass through the things on your computer screen? I feel a desire rushing through me like a fire burning. A need for more but what should I do when I don’t have a clear solution to anything? http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 30, 2021

  writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #Boys, #cock, #depression, #drama, #Dreams, #emotions, #fantasy, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #GenderQueer, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #lover, #masturbation, #memory, #oral, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SC, #sex, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, #youngadult, poetry, writing

• Desire

  I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before my eyes but I stood…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  May 11, 2021

  writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #Boys, #cock, #depression, #drama, #Dreams, #emotions, #fantasy, #FlashFiction, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #GenderQueer, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #lover, #masturbation, #memory, #music, #night, #oral, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SC, #sex, #ShortStory, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #story, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, #YAfiction, Fiction, poetry, writing

• Late Night

  I’m tired but awake. Alone and lonely. Depressed and anxious. Who am I? What defines me as me? Can I be more than what others may think of me? http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ GoFundMe: gf.me/u/zngibh gf.me/u/zngxxz Watch me Live each night on my Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuZxvV2KZgC8nkSHYtUoAkQ…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  May 3, 2021

  writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #Boys, #cock, #depression, #drama, #Dreams, #emotions, #fantasy, #FlashFiction, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #GenderQueer, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #lover, #masturbation, #memory, #music, #night, #oral, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SC, #sex, #ShortStory, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #story, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, #YAfiction, Fiction, green, poetry, writing

• Untitled New Story

  I found myself on a Greyhound leaving the bright lights of the city for a place I’ve only heard about in stories. What brought about my exodus is another story. This is the story of how a gay boy went to live with his conservative grandparents. This is your warning: reading this story may result…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  October 11, 2019

  Fiction

  #California, #drama, #memory, #night, #past, #story, Fiction

• Sometimes I Wonder…

  Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no one could ever love me…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  August 1, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #depression, #emotions, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #lover, #memory, #night, #past, #poem, #sex, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing

• Whole Again

  I wish I could be so bold in my life but these strings keep me down. I feel the tug to be like someone else when my real self keeps reaching up towards greater heights. I imagine being myself but who am I when these tragedies and lies have shaped my identity? I want to…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  July 25, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #abuse, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #GayWriter, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #night, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry, writing

• Better…

  A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

  jasonwhitaker29171

  July 7, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #cock, #depression, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #memory, #oral, #past, #poem, #sex, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #writer, poetry

• A moment

  I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as my boyfriend though I don’t…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 25, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #boyfriend, #cock, #Dreams, #emotions, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #LosAngeles, #love, #lover, #memory, #oral, #past, #poem, #SC, #sex, #songs, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry

• What Became of You…

  I didn’t mean to forget you, if I could go back we’d still be friends, but now these many years later we’ve gone our separate ways. I remember riding so far, I think of you every so often. Where are you now? I have no way to connect with you. If you read this please…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 15, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #bicycle, #BMX, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #West Columbia, #words, #writer, poetry

• On My Own

  Today I woke up, alone again, not knowing where to begin. Who can I go to when I need someone? I’m here alone, wondering what to do, wondering if I will fail when I try to be more than I was yesterday. Will you help me? Today I wonder how I will do anything on…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 15, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Alone, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, #words, #writer, poetry

• Confidence

  Late night, alone in my room, wondering what to do when I’m so unsure of everything. I desire to do so much but I lack the confidence to do much of anything.

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 15, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Alone, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, poetry

• People from My Past

  It’s stuck in my head, fragments of memories, those times real or imagined. There’s no one to ask, no one would know, these people from my past either a dream or in my waking life.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ fjasonwhitakerwriter.com  

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 14, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Dreams, #emotions, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #words, #writer, poetry

• Not Here

  Slow down, night is here, sing me to sleep while I pretend I’m somewhere not here.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 11, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #music, #poem, #songs, #words, #writer, poetry

• Awake and Hopeful

  I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this journey of life and I’m…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 11, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #cock, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #lover, #masturbation, #memory, #past, #poem, #purpose, #sex, #story, #writer, poetry

• If I Could…

  If I could go back live the moments again just to be next to you again I would. If I could go back and change the way I was I would tell you how much you meant to me, I would.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 11, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #words, #writer, poetry

• Remember

  These days, looking back, looking forward uncertain where I’ll be next. I remember you, I’ve not forgotten what you meant to me even after all of these years. I reflect upon those days and nights, so many people that I have met, and now here I am alone. On the floor the night before, I…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 11, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SC, #words, #writer, poetry

• Who Cares?

  It’s raining outside my window, darkness all around me, night has come once again and dreams will soon find me. My head is heavy with burdens, does anyone care? I find these times alone, times when I have nothing but thinking to do to be times of strong emotions as I recall memories when all…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 9, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #boyfriend, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #identity, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #lover, #memory, #past, #poem, #purpose, #SouthCarolina, poetry

• Gone

  Lately I’ve been dreaming, thinking so much about tomorrow. I feel these memories, like pieces of a puzzle. Tonight I remember a life lived before now, I want to hold tightly to these moments gone.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo  

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 8, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #SouthCarolina, #words, #writer, poetry

• Memories

  If you can hear me, when I say I need you, will you remember me when I’m no longer with you? Someday my memories, all of my days and nights, will be forgotten like so many before me. I wonder if I’m wasting these precious hours seeking something I shall never find. I wonder if…

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 8, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Alone, #boyfriend, #depression, #Dreams, #emotions, #gaypoem, #gaysex, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #love, #memory, #music, #past, #poem, #purpose, #words, #writer, poetry

• Fragments

  Somewhere inside of my head memories float out of reach, Sometimes I find bits and fragments of something lost within.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo  

  jasonwhitaker29171

  June 8, 2019

  poetry, writing

  #Dreams, #gaypoem, #GayWriter, #images, #LGBT, #LGBTWriter, #memory, #past, #poem, #words, #writer, poetry