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On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

When I dream of Love…

All of these days and nights dreaming of someone like you but you’re just a dream that will never come true. Alone in my room with my thoughts and time… I find myself wanting what I’ve never had from you.   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: […]

Sometimes of Memory

Sometimes while watching the weather repeat, hot days with thunderstorms once again, I find myself thinking about these many years. Once I sat and spoke with you on the Boulevard while fascinated by the colors of the lights and our conversation I recall as a jumble of words. I follow […]

Waiting

I shed the things of my past like baggage left at a former house. I see the changes over time like an evolution of myself. I feel the soft skin beneath and the blood rushes. Counting the stars while wishing these dreams could ever be true. I lay in bed […]

Satisfy

The hour comes to me, late at night in my room, with the urge to be aroused when all I really want is to go to bed. Love is Love but have I found it anywhere? I can be alone and satisfy myself but what I really need is someone […]

Better…

A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

If You Will Remain

Soft lips under soft light candle light, knowing you’re there.   Moments together yearning for more.   Day ends is there more? can I ever know you know you more?   Please consider the Following: https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 Podcast: https://anchor.fm/f-jason-whitaker https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

Anymore

It’s late in the evening, I’m thinking of leaving, but there’s nothing for me out there beyond the dreams. I like to be more than imaginary, these feelings so real I’m about to be real. Have you seen my anatomy? What words would you say to describe the parts of […]

Wait and See

I’m patiently waiting, I have what you want, ask and you will find what I’ll show you. Let’s not play, I have a nice one so let’s see what we can do with it. We have options, no reason to stop, on your lips I can feel that this is […]

Absent

It’s me again trying to be me since when, not ashamed to admit my needs when I write about my lack of sex in my life. Memories are fine but being on my own these memories only remind me of the absence in my life.   Please consider the Following: […]

Someday

With fading dreams I awake, wondering if today will be different from the many before this one. I dream of a stranger, someone unknown to me now but someday we won’t be strangers anymore. Hello, I’ve been thinking of you often, wondering what those future days would be like when […]

Remember

Sky is full of stars, memories fill me as I long to be somewhere other than here. I’m in my room, though in my mind I’m thousands of miles somewhere else. Images fill my head, my heart quickens its pace. I think of them, their names long since gone from […]

You

I was so eager, the conversation we had now only a blur of random words. I wanted you, in the living room. You told me to take it slow but I needed your everything. Alone we were in my apartment, I was nervous as I tasted you for the first […]

Those Darkest of Hours

In the dark hours, times of low and sorrow I hear his voice shattering my silence. I want to kill his memories, forget the time I spent captive. I’ve been broken, those words spoken are still roaming my head like smoke filling a room of memory. You watched me in […]

Living Room Scene

It’s been some time since those times, on your knees at me feet you consumed me. I see you sometimes, Sunday morning, and I remember those hours. I can feel your mouth take me inside as my mind drifted. I can remember those times and I think I want it […]

Hello Stranger

Hello Stranger, insert your name here. Not that I hate you or love you but what we had was just a moment. I remember those times but I don’t remember all of you. You pointed down and told me you wanted it after saying you were not about it. You […]