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Waiting

I walk alone in the dark of night dreaming of holding hands. I could be wrong about so many things but finding love is one thing I know that I need. Is it too late to have a first love? Am I wrong to want the true one for me? […]

Change

I thought things would be better, never imagined things being this way, but here I am waiting for change. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5FKzPNjMPgt2YQUzwnwbco https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171 https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish List: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share B&H Wish Lists: https://www.bnh.com/wish/d708c22fb2c7d1f91713b6953a9b1957/ https://www.bnh.com/wish/6bf0fe098ba1479a6647d7f85ba48939/

Late Night Thoughts

These hours in the middle of the night awake staring at the ceiling again. I wish I were dreaming but dreams are nothing. I wish I were somewhere out there doing something other than this. I could count these hours passing as I lay here with so many thoughts crowding […]

Time

Sun through open window. Time passing. We are all waiting for something uncertain. These times may not be easy but there have been difficult times in the past. We watch the things around us. The times are changing. The times have always been changing. Let us not worry because we […]

Late Evening Hours

It’s late in the evening hours, I don’t know what cam of me, these hours wasted thinking of the yesterdays. I’ve come so far from where I was, lost in a confusion about everything, not that I know everything now but I am wiser than I was those many days […]

Late Evening…

In the late hours of the day I browse my memory for something I lost to time. I hear the music and it makes me recall times gone. Alone I find myself looking back over the years wondering where those people I met are now. These hours spent living moments […]

Uncertain

I wake up from dreams uncertain where to begin, alone in my room, considering what to do with my time. These hours alone, wasted, looking for things I will never find. When things are uncertain, as they are now, what do you do when you have no clue as to […]

Scars, Unseen

I wake up the same as I do everyday. I know the past is unchangeable yet I still want to reconsider every mistake I’ve ever made. I have scars that you can see, scars from my past, and scars that you cannot see. I know these scars will never go […]

New

I laughed in a dream one night. I d not recall the joke but I laughed out loud. I stare up at the ceiling. is this my “new” life? Waiting for tomorrow to come. I don’t laugh often these days so when I laughed and smiled in my dream it […]

Normal

You stand around the empty rooms wondering if things will ever be normal again. I look at my life and I realize that things have never been normal to me. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish […]

Reasons…

Before the night begins I find reasons to do nothing. How many days can I do the same thing? At night, in bed, I imagine the possible. So many options. After dreams I wake uncertain again. I find more reasons to do nothing. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ […]

Until Tomorrow

I sat alone and watched time. I never thought I would end up here again. Alone and uncertain of everything. The hours pass and soon it’s night again. The morning is gone and each day only lasts so long. Is this how the rest of my life will be? Stuck […]

Now, Alone

I take my time to recall you as you once were just to see the way you look now. It’s not easy being alone but what we had would never last. I have written of my love for you before but I have always known that my love was for […]

Less…

The moon is high, alone in the sky. I always dream of things different for me. No one here but me in my waking hours. In my dreams I am never alone. I hear the depth to the sorrows but what can I do but cry for those like me. […]

Many Years Ago

When I was younger I thought I knew so much. Those years now gone like a ripple from a stone across a still pond. I think back for a moment to those times longe forgotten now recalled like it were yesterday. A play performed and so many days roaming the […]

A Day of Hope

I wake up here again, waiting for change. Somewhere is anywhere but here, anywhere could be better than here. Waking up each day wondering if today will be the day that is the begin to a change in my life. Will this be the day that my life changes for […]

My Life

Suddenly things change and I am left alone. My mind goes blank. Depression and anxiety. My life is a mess. Always an outsider, I’m always on my own. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish List: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share […]