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Waiting for Love

I saw the lights in the sky while watching Victor fall in love. Somewhere out there beneath these very stars is a love I hope to find. I wonder how many more days until we meet and then he will be mine and will be his. Watching love through makebelieve […]

A Day of Hope

I wake up here again, waiting for change. Somewhere is anywhere but here, anywhere could be better than here. Waking up each day wondering if today will be the day that is the begin to a change in my life. Will this be the day that my life changes for […]

Dreams, Foreshadowing

I have seen these days like a dream. At the time I had little understanding of what these dreams meant. I wake to the sun intruding like a thief stealing my sleep. Someone once told me that I should write down my dreams as soon as I wake up, before […]

These Trees

These trees bend to the wind’s embrace, dance with the breeze, and I hold out my hands searching for a reason to anything. I’m not afraid of the dark, what is hidden can remain, but what I fear the most is going through life alone. At night I whisper in […]

My Life

Suddenly things change and I am left alone. My mind goes blank. Depression and anxiety. My life is a mess. Always an outsider, I’m always on my own. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish List: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share […]

DEAR…

I search your eyes for meaning, your words for reason, waiting for you to say what I have always wanted to hear. These days are the longest days I’ve known so far. Waiting for the unknown to be my destiny. I hear your voice though we have never met. I […]

Alone…

Late at night I watch the stars. I can hear the wind through the trees and a dog nearby barking at the moon. I close my eyes for a moment to recall things of dreams almost forgotten. In my dreams I am not alone and when I open my eyes […]

The Silence of My Solitude

I sit watching my computer screen, wondering if I will ever not be alone, wondering if I will forever be like this. At night in bed I remember being so close to those strangers, the space between us so small but the distance between our hearts light years apart, and […]

Good Night

I stay up late watching the weather outside my window. The sky clears as the moon and stars begin to appear. I feel the need to be somehwere better. I’m solitary. No one to share my bed with. Only my dreams. I feel a need to share my longing for […]

Fragments of Memory…

The trees sway in the wind like laughter as I walk alone tonight. The dogs and birds are fast asleep. I hear my footsteps on the wet pavement. Walking alone at night my thoughts are random. Strange things come to me. Like, when do bees sleep? The volume of the […]

No More Opression

I’m taking my time to get the words right, no reason to rush when we’ve been fighting so long, let’s find our voice and shout together as one for this is our time to rise above. It’s been so many years of being less than and now we have our […]

Pride March

How far to the mountain top? How much further do we march until we see above the tree tops? It’s been so many years since Stonewall and we’re still not done fighting yet. Many tears shed for those who have sacrificed so much for the things we are blessed with […]

For a friend departed

Sometimes I say a prayer for you while I’m alone. These days are tough and the days and nights ahead will be as they never have before. We can look back with wonder and we could look forward uncertain but all we have is this moment we’re all living in. […]

Zombie Boy #1

I have no idea how to begin this. I mean where do I begin? The World changed. I changed. I was not myself for so many years. I regret the person I became. I hate the word most use to describe the person I was during those years. Zombie. I […]

Tree to Nowhere #1

I woke up in a strange land surrounded by nothing familiar. I followed a stranger to this place I first thought I had imagined. I followed through a door in that tree down into the ground and up out the other side. I don’t know where things turned upside down. […]

Country Song #1

My story has no proper beginning. There is stuff about my story that occured before I was born. My story began with my parents. The problem is that to tell you this story properly I have to start somewhere in the middle. I was living with my grandparents because my […]

Ghost #1

They said it was sudden. They said many things meant to make me feel better. I wanted nothing to do with their good intentions. I wanted to be alone. No one tells you the truth when your dad dies. They want to make you feel better. In truth they want […]