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When Words Fail…

I see the stars. I see the trampoline. I hear your voice in the dark. I feel your skin between my fingers. I think so much of what could have been. I imagine us now if there had been more to us then. I loved you then and maybe I […]

You and My Memories

If I never hear from you I will never miss the words you could have said. I look back in time and memory to when you kissed me. I travel in time if only in memory to relive what we once had. You are now distant but once you were […]

On My Own…

I stare into the abyss of the coming day, hours I dread coming so fast like a train on a foggy day appearing like a ghost so suddenly, I shake myself awake after dreams so vivid but now they’re all faded erased from my memory. I count to ease the […]

Not Forgotten

I slow my mind with a rhythm as my heart races. I think about a moment, it was so long ago, it was just one night but I’ve never forgotten it. I recall meeting him every so often and how I only thought of him while we were together. Sometimes […]

Sometimes I Wonder…

Sometimes I wonder where I went so wrong? I could love you but these feelings won’t let me let you in. Somedays I feel like this crushing force is about to take my last breath as I remember you as you were when we would kiss. Sometimes I think no […]

Satisfy

The hour comes to me, late at night in my room, with the urge to be aroused when all I really want is to go to bed. Love is Love but have I found it anywhere? I can be alone and satisfy myself but what I really need is someone […]

Better…

A million questions inside of my head, sitting while you were going down, closing my eyes to what’s real for a dream. I close my eyes to it all when things are tough, I imagine things are better but I wonder if things will ever be better…      

If You Will Remain

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Into the Woods

The embers of the fire glow as if alive. The fire is almost dead. Smoke rises in a few places. I sit on a log nearby watching. It’s late in the evening and I’m here alone watching a fire die out. The rest of the troop is elsewhere. Earlier in […]

Once Upon a Memory

When I close my eyes I remember the beginning. The scars remain but so do the memories. I’m told that things will get better but memories are not as easy to heal. The lights are off in his house. I can hear the rest of his family asleep throughout the […]

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

Where We Once Walked…

The bus moves slowly through the town that I once called home. I’ve been sleeping since I left the place I was but now here I am uncertain of what’s next. I could say that moving back here was a part of a greater plan but when have I ever […]

Awake and Hopeful

I woke from a dream not knowing if it was real, open my eyes to realise I was dreaming the entire time. I could say I regret but life happened and all you have are memories. I have a telephone but no one ever calls me, I’m alone on this […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

I dream of Love

I dream of days that will never be, I dream of people I’ll never know. Sometimes I say words no one will ever hear, sometimes I think: why am I here? It’s not easy to explain, the many things that I am. I can be sweet and I can be […]

Anymore

It’s late in the evening, I’m thinking of leaving, but there’s nothing for me out there beyond the dreams. I like to be more than imaginary, these feelings so real I’m about to be real. Have you seen my anatomy? What words would you say to describe the parts of […]

Wait and See

I’m patiently waiting, I have what you want, ask and you will find what I’ll show you. Let’s not play, I have a nice one so let’s see what we can do with it. We have options, no reason to stop, on your lips I can feel that this is […]