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Struggles

I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]

Answers

I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]

Not Wanted

I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]

Alone

Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]

Desire

I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]

Country Song #1

My story has no proper beginning. There is stuff about my story that occured before I was born. My story began with my parents. The problem is that to tell you this story properly I have to start somewhere in the middle. I was living with my grandparents because my […]

Not Forgotten

I slow my mind with a rhythm as my heart races. I think about a moment, it was so long ago, it was just one night but I’ve never forgotten it. I recall meeting him every so often and how I only thought of him while we were together. Sometimes […]

This Now…

I have been waiting for so long to tell you everything but at these times the words fail me somehow. If I could take back what I’ve done, reverse the years to spare you the tears, I would do anything to do it all again. I cannot pretend to understand […]

Waiting

I shed the things of my past like baggage left at a former house. I see the changes over time like an evolution of myself. I feel the soft skin beneath and the blood rushes. Counting the stars while wishing these dreams could ever be true. I lay in bed […]

A moment

I was thinking so often, in that moment that lasted a only minutes, that I could take you home but I was too shy to even go up to you in person. I watched hoping that you’d come over and things would happen like an emotion. I imagine you as […]

Again

Last words for another day, will I be so bold and say what’s on my mind? I’m gay if you don’t already know. I suck cock and guys suck mine as well. I’ve had sex as if you could tell by looking at me. Am I ashamed of these things? […]

Day to Day

These times are tougher, wondering what tomorrow will bring, tougher than most days but these aren’t your typical days. My emotions are mixed, I want to be alone but I want to have a boyfriend to hold me at night. These times I imagine being next to him, I could […]

Past

I hear the soundtrack of my life, it’s not what you’d imagine. I can hum along but I never know the words. I can recall the feeling behind memories like scenes from a movie I watch again and again in my head. I rewind but I don’t travel in time, […]

Seeking After

I take the Red, watching people sometimes, wasting time as above me now people live their lives. The sound of an approaching train, The sounds of people all around, we rush as the doors part, as strangers on a train we leave here for somewhere. We’re all going somewhere, different […]