Desire
I feel the years peeling away, pages of a book opening for the first time, as memories rush in like a wave. I see it so clear and now I feel a strong desire. I wanted it then but I was too shy to touch you. It was there before […]
Late Night
I’m tired but awake. Alone and lonely. Depressed and anxious. Who am I? What defines me as me? Can I be more than what others may think of me? http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ GoFundMe: gf.me/u/zngibh gf.me/u/zngxxz Watch me Live each […]
So Many Memories
I sit for hours thinking alone, a sinking feeling I know so well, as thoughts parade through my mind like when was the last time I was not alone. These walls I have known, for so long, are so bland but it’s all I know. The outside world seems distant, […]
A Moment in My Life
I saw the lights on as the door was opened to the bedroom. He said nothing while we sat beneath fake stars and planets. Music played from downstairs as we held hands upstairs. Time paused as we kissed on his bed. I thought nothing could be better than his nipples […]
Road Trip
The road stretches out before us. The music flowing from this van as we wander down the highway. I linger upon the things on the sides of this highway. The houses and towns between trees and fields. This journey began as a dare to see how far we could go. […]
A beginning
The sky is purple as I start out across the vacant lot towards my future life. I hold all that I posses in a bag on my shoulder. My former life behind me and the uncertain of tomorrow in front of me. My burdens shed for adventure as I begin […]
Waiting
I walk alone in the dark of night dreaming of holding hands. I could be wrong about so many things but finding love is one thing I know that I need. Is it too late to have a first love? Am I wrong to want the true one for me? […]
Once
I held my breath as he went down. His lips pressed against me. He consumed me. I counted the seconds passing wondering how long I could go. He knew what he was doing. He was gentle but he was in control. He had me in his mouth. I closed my […]
Two Trees
Once there was a tree that sat upon a hill surrounded by fields, surrounded by trees. This tree was alone. A solitary tree. With each season this tree would wish for another tree to be next to. Each season the trees past the fields would mock him. He was just […]
Change
I thought things would be better, never imagined things being this way, but here I am waiting for change. https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography http://patreon.com/jason29171 https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171 Podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/5FKzPNjMPgt2YQUzwnwbco https://www.fjasonphoto.com/ https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/ https://www.instagram.com/jason29171 https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter video editing: Video editing and color grading: Amazon Wish List: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share B&H Wish Lists: https://www.bnh.com/wish/d708c22fb2c7d1f91713b6953a9b1957/ https://www.bnh.com/wish/6bf0fe098ba1479a6647d7f85ba48939/
Late Night Thoughts
These hours in the middle of the night awake staring at the ceiling again. I wish I were dreaming but dreams are nothing. I wish I were somewhere out there doing something other than this. I could count these hours passing as I lay here with so many thoughts crowding […]
In the Tall Grass
The night is aglow with stars and fireworks. We walk with our hands knitted together between us. The grass is tall except where this path has been flattened by people walking around this small park as we are now. A light breeze greets us as we enter a clearing surrounded […]
The Tower (Part One)
The stairs of the giant tour are numerous. The tower is old. I am certain that whatever is at the top of this tower is worth this adventitious journey. I attempt to steady my breathing so I may continue on my quest. With each step I take I begin to […]
A Walk
The sky is a blue canvas as I walk down a street unaware of where I am walking. My mind is restless as I walk away from home towards anywhere but home. The first time I saw him I was uncertain whether or not he was real. I look up […]
Time
Sun through open window. Time passing. We are all waiting for something uncertain. These times may not be easy but there have been difficult times in the past. We watch the things around us. The times are changing. The times have always been changing. Let us not worry because we […]
Journey
I try to sleep on the bus as we pass through the darkness of night towards the bright lights of an unknown city. This is not my destination but a stop on the way. The bus driver and I are the only two awake at this hour. I left everything […]
Direction
The cloud form and drift across a blue canvas. The heat of the day rises from the surface as tall grass dance in a gentle breeze. The sounds of lie somewhere mingle with the sounds of nature. I stand waiting for a sign. A reason to move. A reason to […]
Late Evening Hours
It’s late in the evening hours, I don’t know what cam of me, these hours wasted thinking of the yesterdays. I’ve come so far from where I was, lost in a confusion about everything, not that I know everything now but I am wiser than I was those many days […]
Unwritten
A slow drive across the country, with the songs of road trips a soundtrack to my journey, to find myself is where I begin. The ending is unclear and the middle is still being written. These faded pages of memory written over a lifetime are all I have of my […]
A New Day
The cool of the evening after the heat of the afternoon is a welcome change. The sky changes colors as the sun vanishes over the horizon. I stand alone on the edge of tomorrow, waiting for the last moments of this day to pass. The dreams will soon come. Life […]
