I start the day with hope but I don’t know how long it will take me. I’m alone in my struggles. I keep silent because no one hears me. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]
I could be famous now but what I really need is someone to hold me at night. I’m alone dreaming of a life fuller and more satisfying than this one but things of life keep me down, they keep me down. Are things getting better because I still don’t see […]
I’m in the middle of a waking dream when I realize I’m always alone when awake. I’ve got no one to share my time with. It’s another day of staring at a computer screen, I feel hopeless not knowing what to do. I feel the pressure of so many choices […]
I wake up to a new day wondering how I’ll get through these hours. I’m alone dreaming of a better life but in these struggles of life I’m on my own. I’m adrift, miles from safe harbor, miles from comfort in being myself. I just don’t know how to make […]
Sometimes I think of you and the moments we shared and I wish I could go back and be more in the moment when I was trapped in finding my identity. It’s been so long and I’ve always thought of you, so many people I’ve met on this journey. If […]
Have you seen the days pass like there’s nothing else to do but watch the hours from your bedroom? I feel the weight of life as I try to live day to day. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my […]
I’m not ready for anything. These hours I spend dreaming of a better life wasted on dreaming when I’m not one of those people that’s given opportunities in life. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading this blog on my Patreon: http://patreon.com/jason29171 Please read my writing on my Patreon and these sites: […]
Sometimes. Sometimes is now. I’m stranded alone wishing I could find a way to change the circumstances of my life. Sometimes I feel trapped in my depression and anxiety. Wishing I could do more but I fear failure so I give up before I try. http://threadbeast.refr.cc/K2TGJ8G https://www.danscomp.com/fit-bike-co-2021-str-bmx-bike-lg-20.75-toptube-light-pink-29-r2-str-lg-lp/p-5uqrszeqtmqeqage Please continue reading […]
Sometimes I wake up alone after strange dreams and I feel like I’ve been somewhere but I’ve not been out of my room for days now. I feel it in my bones, a need to be elsewhere, but here is all I have for now. I miss so much that’s […]
Have you ever watched a movie or read a book and half way through had this feeling that you have already read or watched it before? Sometimes I feel that way about my life. I stand in a field where a house once stood. I can see the walls that […]
I woke up in a strange land surrounded by nothing familiar. I followed a stranger to this place I first thought I had imagined. I followed through a door in that tree down into the ground and up out the other side. I don’t know where things turned upside down. […]
They said it was sudden. They said many things meant to make me feel better. I wanted nothing to do with their good intentions. I wanted to be alone. No one tells you the truth when your dad dies. They want to make you feel better. In truth they want […]
Morning? Can I go back to bed and skip today? I find no excuse for missing school. I mean I could pretend to be sick but the last time I pretended to be sick my mom decided to take me for a doctor’s visit. My reason for wanting to skip […]
It’s late and my mind wanders, with each passing second, from one thing to another. Random. It’s like I’m searching for something that I can care about but all I find are useless things. I guess I should write something. This paper will not write itself. I like to write. […]
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When I close my eyes I remember the beginning. The scars remain but so do the memories. I’m told that things will get better but memories are not as easy to heal. The lights are off in his house. I can hear the rest of his family asleep throughout the […]
I stare into the sky as I wonder why things have come to this, alone on a bus heading to a stranger’s house, and I close my eyes to it all and I dream. In my dreams I have a family. In my dreams I’m not an outsider. I open […]
